1999: Awoke at 6, prodding mum and whispering her name. She kept telling me it was the middle of the night and that I should ‘go back to sleep’, but I didn’t. The alarm eventually went off and feeling bored now I shot up, turned off the alarm and put the radio on. There’s no way she’s snoozing today, I’m wide awake. I spent the day at Nan’s today. We went for a walk over the town; I pushed my buggy the whole way there but managed to hitch a ride back. Mum didn’t get in until 7 tonight and when she finally arrived to pick me up we had to go straight home. I took a chocolate mousse with me which I was insistent on eating with mummy’s keys (she can’t drive then, we get to stay longer), but Nan persuaded me to use my fingers instead. I don’t know if they were any cleaner than the keys to start with, but they were in a wonderful mess by the time I’d finished. When we got home we had to empty mums bedroom of all her furniture and later Dev arrived to lay her carpet. I was a great help of course. At least that’s one roll of carpet gone.
2019: So this morning work wanted me to go painting in my car. Yeah right. Then they said I could do lofts – without ladders. So I spent the day job hunting and filling in load of applications for factories, building and support worker. Need a job. Need my flat.